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1. |
Late For My Prime
01:35
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I’m at the age where you’re lame if you say that you rhyme
I may need to make up my mind
Is chasing the same shit daily the way it’s designed or
Am I just wasting my time
Cause I’m late for my prime
I say it’s OK and I’m fine
And I try to just take it in stride
But I dedicated my life
To be able to write
And I hate that it takes so much time
Now I’m late for my prime
But every day I wake and I rise
Thinking this’ll be the day I decide
To take the advice that I say when I’m angry and wave it goodbye
Or really try to make up some time
But I aint gonna lie
I’ve been chasing this high
I’ve been wasting away being lazy in life
Getting faded I stayed with a glaze in my eyes
But save me a place in the line
Cause I’m late for my prime
Thats why I got my face to the sky
Cause I’m knowing damn well that one day I’m a die but
Based on the vibe I’d say its that its fine
But I’ve yet to get my taste of the cake or the pie
So in case I survive what it takes to arrive
I’m racing to find my place
Cause I’m getting anxious inside
And my patience is fried
I’m late for my prime
And your prime don’t wait for real
I’m late for my prime
And your prime don’t wait for real
I’m late for my prime
And your prime don’t wait for real
I’m late for my prime
And your prime don’t wait for real
I said I’m late for my prime
And your prime don’t wait for real
I think I’m late for my prime
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2. |
Screens
03:26
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Trouble is
We have to know whats up and so we double click
It’s practically a drug the way we plugging in
Our attraction to the ugly
Gets us back to feeling lovely
But perhaps we all should fucking quit
We are in the age of screens
Drifting down the data stream
Scrolling with a swollen thumb
Aint nobody hold their tongue
Sifting thru the latest memes
Double tap your daily feed
Slowly its been over run
Photos of the dull and dumb
Baby pictures, angry teens
Jordan faces, favorite teams
Loneliness and phony love
Bloated lips, emoji shrugs
Vegan bitches, racist things
Porno, Vegas, nature scene
Voters bitching, global floods
No restrictions, POTUS Trump
Fade the filter, paint the screen
Wake up, fake it, make it seem
Pose for selfies, hold it up
Overdressed, ain’t old enough
Ladies gents and in betweens
Pay attention ain’t a dream
Every app thats opened up
It traps us in this social slump
The trouble is
We have to know whats up and so we double click
It’s practically a drug the way we plugging in
Our attraction to the ugly
Gets us back to feeling lovely
But perhaps we all should fucking quit
The trouble is
We have to know whats up and so we double click
It’s practically a drug the way we plugging in
Our attraction to the ugly
Gets us back to feeling lovely
But perhaps we all should fucking quit
I confess
I’ve refreshed
The browser of my iPhone 6
A thousand times so I can check
My lousy likes just like the rest
But I don’t feel the need to fill your feed with food that I digest
Or use the time that I have left
To prove who liked my life the best
Nah that ain’t my success
I barely reply to texts
So I rarely give you guys a glimpse
In the library of my life’s events
But I’ll share with you what I do best
Rhyme very cool I’ve been blessed
And I’ve kept private the wife and my kids
Thats the side of me that I protect.
And I've been told my steez is low,
My beats are stole, my cd sucks
My rhymes are old, repeating flows
Fight me though we’ll see what’s up
But I’m no troll that needs to post my beef on social media
So why’m I supposed to speak to those who think my soul graffiti sucks
Ain’t gone delete it though
I’ll link a flow to keep in touch
Secret shows and deeper cuts
Free to load you keep the buck
And I could go and leak my whole complete discography to ya
And greet the growing greedy bunch
But it’ll never be enough
The trouble is
We have to know whats up and so we double click
It’s practically a drug the way we plugging in
Our attraction to the ugly
Gets us back to feeling lovely
But perhaps we all should fucking quit
The trouble is
We have to know whats up and so we double click
It’s practically a drug the way we plugging in
Our attraction to the ugly
Gets us back to feeling lovely
But perhaps we all should fucking quit
Where has it gone
I blame it on Amazon
We can shop with pajamas on
We don’t stand in long lines at Ralph’s or Von’s
And drive back when the traffic’s strong
Just grab the phone
Or a tablet the app is on
And door dash a sandwich
A ham croisant
Its get tracked to your address, handed off
Even the tip gets added on
It has it all
For pets, kids and adults
No stress, no mess, no crowded malls
No dressing rooms you look fat in, nah
Just drag it all in and cram the cart
Imagine you have any crap u want
All bought with the tap of your magic wand
Matter fact that’s sounding bomb
Let me click real quick on this hat I saw
The trouble is
We have to know whats up and so we double click
It’s practically a drug the way we plugging in
Our attraction to the ugly
Gets us back to feeling lovely
But perhaps we all should fucking quit
The trouble is
We have to know whats up and so we double click
It’s practically a drug the way we plugging in
Our attraction to the ugly
Gets us back to feeling lovely
But perhaps we all should fucking quit
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3. |
ForEveryLittleThing
02:46
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You may have known that
I used to be a stay at home dad
All day alone
Veda was a baby, oh man
I was hanging on
Thinking that it may have gone bad
But she was like an angel that was laying on land
So we would play the most each day, it don’t last
That’s why people say that old cliche it goes fast
Just a little lady hanging with her old man
Trying to make it through the mayhem of a day with no naps
I wish that I could bottle up the past
And all of the tomorrows that’ll follow but I gotta let it pass
Cause every moments gone in like a flash
So I’m just glad I got em in my noggin she’s my daughter I’m her dad
But she’s growing up quick
And I know it won’t quit
Cause her only dope kicks are showing they don’t fit
She’s the host, I’m a guest
Just two virgo’s on a quest
With a new ergo on my chest
Yes
To the precious little queen I held
Its been a dream since 2015 until
So any minute in between if you need dads help I’ll be there
ForEveryLittleThing
Thats F.E.L.T.
I’m Veda sitting playing instrument songs
I may just make a written she won’t listen for long
You’re like a mix of ur moms only miniature
With a little sisterly charm
And a hint of something sinister
You’re like what I am only tiny and dwarfed
Like a lion, or a tiger or a tyrannosaurus
Your not a tyrant till your tired and bored
That’s when the violence and war starts
And bed times applied and enforced
So every night we got a five minute warning
That’s our nightly performance
It expires then you whine and ignore it
So when you’ve finally fallen asleep
The wines starts pouring
Till you climb out of ur sheets saying hi like good morning
I’ve had some time to observe
How my five year old works
The kid can go from kind to kind of a jerk
A lover slash fighter but the lines getting blurred
But there’s another side that just might have matured
I find she’s surprisingly wise with her words
Her first day alive on this earth
Didn’t cry after birth
Just arrived open eyed and alert
I’ve got files of her fiery quirks
And yea sure we’ve yelled
I tease she tells
But I’ve seen my V fight teeth and nail
We have beef then peace like beast and belle
And then its back to the beach digging deep for shells
So to the precious little queen I held
Its been a dream since 2015 until
So any minute in between if you need dads help I’ll be there
ForEveryLittleThing
Thats F.E.L.T.
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4. |
Alcopawlics Awdnonymous
03:38
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I began to wake, I think I drank
Thats when the blank emerged
Stomach taste was purged
What a waste of liquid basted courage
I Stand up straight and check for places hurting
Just the basic service but I couldn’t say for certain 
Beyond the standard aches and nerves those pains I ain’t concerned with
And so I plant my legs and turned my vertebrae then heard click
Reversed it
And searched my dirty cave my blurry gaze was worthless
So I pulled the curtain shades to let the early rays converge in
That’s when the thirst occurred
But first my swollen bladder couldn’t hold another drop
It was only bulging fatter
Lift the seat and piss until it drips complete then drain it
And with slippered feet I drifted toward the kitchen’s entertainment
I saw abundant empty Monkish cans
Filled with guts from blunts and chunks of phlegm
But nothing I could trust and then I spied it
Hiding was a bottle of some bottom shelf
It’s 9 AM I’m not myself
I’m dying man this ought a help
I tipped it up and sipped on what I hoped would quell this trouble
And it’s then I noticed swelling on my knuckles
Fuck bro!
Every goddamn time
Hey yo I’m over this
There’s only so much shit a soul can soak in
For you’re floating in a mix of mostly piss and open ocean
I’m supposed to swig to cope with all the social ticks I’m choked with
Or when smoking don’t convince me all my broken bits are roped in
But soberness is sold by holy cults that run revivals
Indulging in a dose of thumping bibles
It’s something of a side show
But I know that the bluff seems unreliable
When I’d rather just get buzzed once in a while
Denial
Cause I fully invite this shit
I fight bullies with wild threats
Then fly into a violent fit
Yes I admit that I’m a dick
Though I’m a decent striker on the nights I sip I’m lightning quick
I’ll strike a left and right you in a micro sec
But I ain’t shit
Cause I believe I’ve died a bit
It’s my diseases side effect
Now I’m in need of vitamins
Cause I’ve depleted my defense
In light of recent night events
I might just leave this life and live
A quiet peaceful nice existence
Minus drinks that I ingest
I’m sick of sweating through my sheets and sleeping soggy
Of getting headaches in the heat and feeling foggy
I think my memory’s incomplete
Cause there’s so many missing links
I ain’t had anything to drink this week well hardly
I’m sick of sipping sodas getting sober on the sofa shook
I limp to the latrine these symptoms seem to have been overlooked
While laying here let’s say I dare pour some A.M. canine hair
I’m way aware the day is here I need to get it going
The morning lingers and I’m dazed this isn’t ok
Thats when I poured a finger and then chased with some o.j.
I feel the clarity return me to my old self
This alcoholic therapy will bury me but oh well
I’m sorta stuck between I have to and it’s up to me
Yet I ignore the bluff and try to cap it at a couple drinks
But sure enough whenever drinking with restrictions
I always turn up drunk and tend to think it’s a decision
It’s no disease it’s just a habit that I oughta lose
I’m so relieved when I’m just happy with a Waterloo
But if you wanted to then who am I stop ya
My suicides with cubes of ice and vodka
I got ya
I’m sick of sweating through my sheets and sleeping soggy
Of getting headaches in the heat and feeling foggy
I think my memory’s incomplete
Cause there’s so many missing links
I ain’t had anything to drink this week well hardly
I’m sick of sweating through my sheets and sleeping soggy
Of getting headaches in the heat and feeling foggy
I think my memory’s incomplete
Cause there’s so many missing links
I ain’t had anything to drink this week well hardly
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5. |
Money Don't Satisfy
04:17
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This is less a theory than a hunch
And that’s just the sort of serious assumption most are weary to debunk but
I’ve gotten clearance to discuss it
It aint the most mysterious of subject
But it’s weird and kinda suspect
If you the public wants to hear as I discuss it
let me dissertate the disappearance of the one cents
The fact is I ain’t seen any in a month
It’s time to get these pair of pennies in bunch
Good luck cause
Money doesn’t satisfy as advertised
But once we heed that bad advice
It’s what will lead to man’s demise
For now the nuts are what they have us by
It’s disruptive but the average guy
Is comfortable just standing by
Fuck if I can fathom why
Money is meaningless
Something that they tease us with
The one thing we believe and it’s disgusting and egregious
Just another scheme they keep adjusting for the zenith
Trust me man it’s genius
It sucks I couldn’t start it with them
But now I’m screaming where’s the justice for the barter system?
It don’t take Harvard wisdom
To get the gist that theres a twist to making all this income
Creating dollar emblems
With lots of hints masonic glyphs that make the modern head blown
Pass that papyrus strip yo
I spy a providence eye high on that pyramid stone
And that’s the marker that they watch you with
A proclimated Document
The spark of many arguments
The cost of which quite often strips your conscience of its proper fit
It’s the crushing calm of constant debt
Money aint the meaning it's the motive
Quote it
We can all agree that being greedy is the grossest
You can be at peace and be the brokest
Know this
Please do not believe a thing the media has told us
Money aint the meaning it's the motive
Quote it
We can all agree that being greedy is the grossest
You can be at peace and be the brokest
Know this
Please do not believe a thing the media has told us
I’ve been trying to muster all the gumption I can gather
When I punch in on the clock I’m like a functioning cadaver
The hutzpah’s been abandoned
These are footsteps of a phantom
I could spend what I have
Being a husband and a dad
But I’m booked
Looking for a buck to bless the budget
A double check a month is spent, this fucking rent is rubbish
Im defeated yet devoted
My freedoms been eroded
But I treat it as a fee to be immediately focused
We don’t need a leader to control us
To veto all the voters
Cause we are not obedient to POTUS
Our needs jus go unnoticed while the scenery is hopeless
So it seems to me these meetings have no meaning in the moment so
No more leaning on the letter of the law
It’s better to be fed up
Than have never been involved
So instead of trying to settle for the minimalist wage
I'm writing this opinionated page
To say that
Money aint the meaning it's the motive
Quote it
We can all agree that being greedy is the grossest
You can be at peace and be the brokest
Know this
Please do not believe a thing the media has told us
Money aint the meaning it's the motive
Quote it
We can all agree that being greedy is the grossest
You can be at peace and be the brokest
Know this
Please do not believe a thing the media has told us
Can you spare a couple copper coins?
Offer up your coffers boys
Cough up what it costs to cop the costumes that we all enjoy
It’s just a drop inside a bucket
You can plop it in his cup amongst the scoffing of the public fucks
It seems to me they’re pretty pissy
And they’re quick to call the pigs the count was zero Mississippi
Then its blitzkrieg
So if succeeding means I’m stingy
Then I’m leaning to the left and intervening on an instinct
I’ll be the mediating middle man
And you can be the bait as we debate the subtle synonyms
Cause we remember Hammy Lincoln’s legal tender
For they sneaked him full of zinc and things thats cheaper to assemble
They never meant to mint the metal if it’s costing more
We used to trust a pennies scent was like a knob for doors
So how much longer till they say that paper dollars isn’t making sense
And you exchange your wallet for a data chip?
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6. |
Same Old Stuff
03:20
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Same old stuff a lotta years
Just so you are all aware
Same old stuff a lot of years
It’s the stale subject of failed justice and fallen tears
I stay in touch with it but aint enough discussion going on upstairs
We’re in constant fear because they want us scared
It’s weird the motto that once brought us here
Is bring me your impoverished and your bottom tiered
Those promises have not adhered
We played along then waited longer and we’ve gone nowhere
It’s death before dishonor neither Donald or Obama care
Lets say you volunteer to march into the college square to acknowledge somethings not as fair
Then cops appear and block the way u walk while popping shots of toxic air
How in the failed fuck has this become so common here
See I’ve been waiting months and their response is clear
Steady saying nothin and it’s hard to hear this government is not sincere
You can’t make this up the situation sucks beyond repair
But heres the latest fluff thats on the air
Same old stuff a lotta years
Same old stuff we got it year round
Today is just tomorrow’s mirror
But they adjust it to appear now 
Okay enough we got it , yea It’s been awful here
Coughing from cops who teargas the people watching near
Many were not prepared
We’re all just volunteers for our fellow fallen peers
So what’s the problem here officer?
This ain’t a bluff it's not a dare
Same old comfy office chair
But say something that u don’t often hear
We’ve been stuck on thoughts and prayers
This is looking like the publics cross to bear
So we should take this up a notch
Fuck a cop fuck a cop
There aint no love loss not in here nah
But they won’t budge cause they hardly care yea
They say so what and you can’t make em rush
Cause Its been the same old stuff for a lot of years
There aint no love loss not in here nah
But they won’t budge cause they hardly care yea
They say so what and you can’t make em rush
Cause Its been the same old stuff for a lot of years
We gotta find way this time
But we just can’t erase the lines of racism that taints this nations pride
Cause hatreds always based in basic lies if you debate they just deny it
So let the human race accumulate and fucking riot
They label us defiant
I blame it on the giants
Lay the favorite when the Davids vs. Goliath
Cause we can take this guy if we just try it
I’m Aiming high adjacent to the eyelids
Cause two can play the side of blatant violence
But This is nothing new
It's an ugly truth
If a system is abused then
Shit doesn’t improve
It's a flawed institution
They want us to feud
But thats not the solution
It’s hard to undo
Cause the boss is confusing
But FOX interviews him
We fought revolutions just to stop what were losing
The cops keep on shooting
Theres nazi’s saluting
We’re caught in a loop and these knots need to loosen
Cause hatreds not inherited
It’s based on some embarrassment
Or maybe its some fake shit that your parents said
But either way it's wearing thin
Just like the phrase we’re all American
Cause thats a flawed experiment thats marauding in arrogance
So there it is
Go do your worst I dare you pigs
Cause We’re the perps that barely flinch
Until the first canary kicks
You’re either very pissed or clearly you don’t care a bit
Thats fair I guess but let me say one sentence and thats where it ends.
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7. |
Thirty Awd Years
02:11
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Yo
Nobody knows how it’ll play out
But I’m a little late
Lower middle aged now
Sitting center stage and I stay doubting
Every day counting the ways in a fit of rage shouting
At stray white hairs saying stay right there
It’s like a strange nightmare when I face my mirror
I wouldn’t say I care but today I dared
To let my blank eyes stare and I’ve aged light years so
If the secrets simple ima need examples
I don’t mean to be resentful but can’t delete the impulse
I went from a geek with pimples, then blinked and seen some wrinkles
I just hope the time between has been eventful
Remember
You’re only as old as you feel
Well my knees feel old as the hills and I’m sober from pills
So I guess I don’t know how to deal
Cause my legs don’t hold me as well when it cold and I’m chilled
But still
As a whole I can deal with the moments
The groans and the ills
I know its uphill and Its lonely but only until
They rebuild my components when cloning is real
Yea
I know you don’t know what i’m going through
I know you don’t know what im going through
Yea yea yea yea
I’m not what you’ve been told
Man that blueprints old
I’ve improved the fuses the screws and bolts
And then tuned up the loose ends
lubed my soul
And shed the useless views that I used to hold
I don’t lose control
Over dudes trying to prove they bold
I leave them newbs alone
and when that mood is shown I see the clues
Thats my to cue to go
It aint cool
Thank you but no
Yo
Cause its been Thirty odd years I’m alert and all ears
Don’t believe the story y’all hear
I used to be a nerd and all weird back before I bought beer
But now the smell of bourbons in my dirty long beard yea
But so I’m sure were all clear,
I feel worry not fear
In a hurry not scared
Getting blurry now that forty draws near
You might have heard its been a Pretty hard thirty odd years
I know you don’t know what i’m going through
I know you don’t know what i’m going through
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8. |
We'd Smoke
02:02
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Yo
Theres love and hate for this bud debate
I for one embrace it for its trusted traits
It’s safer than the drugs we take
And we’ve begun to make it public, I can puff a j
When stubborn, anxious, unengaged
Or stuck inside that sunken place
But some would say that slope is sorta slippery
Then us smokers got the vote and still they don’t support the victory
But i could pinch a pinner and become an instant winner
For a minute or a month
It’s all in the middle and the thumb
I got the grinder and some zags
Two kinds of ganja in a bag
I got the fire I just need a place to burn one
So lets go find a spot in back
I got some pot that I can pack
You wanna try it? light some weed and take your turn but
Yo
Theres something u need to know
It’s the way that we would smoke
First u gotta breath in slow
Then feel the heat and hold it
You just gotta keep control
Repeat it cause you need em both
But hit it deeper even though
Your lungs completely bloated
This is an introduction
A set of simple instructions
To settle myths and assumptions
And benefit while your puffin
Something to assemble the symbol we level up with
But mostly so when it’s lit and we hit it that shit’ll function
You split it down the middle then get rid of all that brittle stuff
Take your buds and break it up a little till you get enough
Get in every bit until it fits, just really fill it up
Then with your thumbs you twist it some
And lick it with a little tongue
If you get it wet you let it sit a bit or it’ll run
Plus ain’t nobody trying to have your spit all getting in there lungs
When you’ve followed all the steps you’re set and nearly finished up
Now with no further interruption flick the bic and hit the blunt
But theres something you need to know
It’s the way that we would smoke
First you gotta breath in slow
Then feel the heat and hold it
You just gotta keep control
Repeat it cause you need em both
But hit it deeper even though
Your lungs completely bloated
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9. |
Glad I Got A Wife
03:42
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Its easier to say it with a pen
So I wrote a letter to the ladies from the men
I know this probably ain’t the way It should begin
So let me just get straight into then
Ps. Maybe it offends
The one that’s just your type can be a typo
The weirdo you can like
And Mr right can be a psycho
The apple of your eye was an ass way back in high school
And the fascinating guy from your class now gets an eye roll
You could meet the man of your dreams
He’ll never seem like the fantasy you frantically fight for
Or you can have a chance with a king and you’ll pass cause it seems
Like you didn’t feel a spark from the start when it just lights slow
They don’t manufacture the kind of man that your after
They don’t make a plastic design of a brand new bachelor
You don’t stand a chance at just finding a handsome actor
And you can’t plan a path where your life’s a romantic chapter so
Love the one you’re with for there specificness
Everyones significant
celebrate your differences
And don’t get so caught up on first impressions
Cause they’re the worst for guessing
Wait until a persons second
Cause you can date until you finally find who’s right
But don’t get blinded by the sight of every shining armored knight right
Cause if you’re waiting for that strong and silent type
You might miss the real kind of guy you like
Man I’m glad I got a wife
Cause I’ve had a lotta life
So can u handle some advice?
All those fantasies are nice
But reality is like …
I’m grown I know
It’s complicated fasho
It’s not the way it’s often stated off the pages of vogue
But stop debating bout the mate you ain’t met yet
I’ll make you a bet
Soon as your patient you’ll be taking that next step
But if you race to pretty faces for sex
Or only chasing occupations that can pay off your debt
You need to face it that’s relationship death
Erase those regrets
Or lay there naked as they pay there respects
See conversations are just basically tests
A way to detect
You nominate em or you’re wasting your breath
You see
You can find dimes by the dozens
Limes and lemons
Guys and women
Talking nines and above em
How many y’all find that you love em though
Thats fine but who doesn’t? Those
Totally stubborn wives and husbands so
Rise above all the pride your minds stuck in and just dive in
Cause love is disguised don’t hide from it
You’re depriving your self of the finer side
Life is a diamond mine
Just gotta find the right one and you’ll be alright
And if there shine is not as bright
That don’t mean they’re not the kind of guy you like
Man I’m glad I got a wife
Cause I’ve had a lot of life
So can you handle some advice
All those fantasies are nice
But reality is like…
You ladies want the right
Height and weight
No five foot eights
Drive a brand new ride with no license plates
Straight ripped with abs
All your outfits drip with class
Tip in cash, never split the tab
Stay patient and clear
Never fake sincere
Be rarely late
And have a great career
You gotta clean and cook
And read mad books
Have good looks and a 13 inch foot
With bank that don’t bounce only gains amounts
And have a savings account that you ain’t takin out
Now if that’s the type of man you like
Then ask my wife how she snagged one
Ha yea right
I’m jus glad I got a wife
Cause I’ve had a lot of life
So can you handle some advice
All those fantasies are nice
But reality is like…
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10. |
Nominees
02:40
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Halos horns and homilies
We pray to lords and play lotteries
Watch pagan porn on Halloween
And then the babe is born then bada bing
When waging war for god and king
Your native norms are not a thing
So stay indoors they may enforce
The blatant laws of sovereignty
They came they conned they commandeered
Then claim we calmly volunteered
The chains are gone, the game is on
The blame is not belonging here
We’re played like pawns and all is fair
They prey upon our common fears
This may involve the mating call
That baby’s moms and fathers share
The date is on your all prepared
Her make ups on with awesome hair
No trace of flaws she opts to wear
Your favorite thong and hot brassiere
Our brains are washed so all thats there
Are stains we got from modest wear
The angry mob has came and gone
I stayed here on my rocking chair
Holy hopes and honest deeds
Hold the hoaxes hostage
He’s been sowing oats for solace
And he’s quoting Crowley constantly
We’ll slowly roast a slogan while our golden globe gets tarnished green
no one knows the nominees
an overloaded lottery
I’m home alone and hardly seen
Folding clothes and gardening
My mobile phone it starts to ring I spoke hello who’s calling please
No one knows the nominees
We’re growing old with rotten rings
Jus gloating goats and gossip queens
I’m told the whole things obsolete
So name the more erotic fling
Relations or a shopping spree
We fake divorce then hock the ring
To pay for more exotic bling
Quotes were told of promised piece
The votes were polled but not released
The skull and bones control the throne they hold the most monopolies
These are random rants and ramblings
That I hand writ rather handsomely
Semantics that I sandwiched into stanzas on a fancy beat
Cause I’m a fan of where the faulty and the fractured meet
I graph before and after into chapters that I can’t complete
So I have not the slightest hint
Of how it could or might have been
Or if I’m in a place that simulates this pseudo life I’m in
I only pick a side if I can win it
So if I like the prize thats at the finish
I’ll devise a way to get it
So I whittled down a wizards staff
And wagged it like a magic wand
Then whispered words of wisdom
As I worshipped wiccan vagabonds
Cause no one knows the nominees
They’re lonely folks that bottom feed
The polls will show we only vote
To overthrow democracy
They’ve sold there souls for all to see
The show is over pardon please
I know it blows that’s how it goes
I’m going home don’t follow me
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11. |
Toxic Chakras
02:24
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Yo
You can hold a fistful of murky crystals
And still be a jerk you shit hole, you should know
That just cause you love the earth a bunch
Don’t mean you get to treat others like dirt ya dunce
Isn’t it absurd how religion is observed
There’s a victor and a villain pick a winner and it works
Only wish upon the wizard when your wickedings the worst
Then pick apart the wisdom till it’s willingly obscured
This ain’t about if it didn’t or did occur
It didn’t but that isn’t my concern
Am I spitting out of turn?
There’s no need to feel division and defer
All because of my decision to revisit what I’ve learned
I’m just tripping on how what was written can be burned
Maybe hidden till it turns into different than at first
If we misinterpret what’s intended to infer
Then the whole entire definitions definitely blurred
Plus I’ve been digging thru these spiritual crates
Trying to steer this interference thru a series of states
I’ve made some serious mistakes now I’m weary of faith
Cause every surface looks perfect with exterior paint
But first you shouldn’t fear to escape
Or have to pay to get in, or ever need to hide your hair and your face
So pretty much anything more than tips to live better
You can bet and be sure there exists a vendetta
There’s many acres of the mediocre meditators
Mainly meaning most are measly meta fakers
It ain’t the mat that makes us or our dramatic faces
It’s the chance to take the path of unimagined places
There’s lots of leeches And lost imposters
The flocks of sheep with uniquely toxic chakras
But talk is cheap so you need to watch your mantras
And that mudra that your using is unusually obnoxious
I hope you notice that you come off so precocious
Spouting quotes from hoaxes
That amount to close to no sense
But here I go venting holier than thou
Thinking that my hocus pocus is the only one that counts
You can hold a fistful of murky crystals
And still be a jerk you shit hole
You should know
That just cause you love the earth a bunch
Don’t mean you get to treat others like dirt ya dunce
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12. |
Don't Mind Tripping
02:34
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I’m deep into a mental trance
Feeling each sense enhance
I think I left to fast
No exits for a second chance
I go to check my hands and suddenly my eyes awoke
To fractals that you find in mostly cracked open kaleidoscopes
I try to hold in several kinds of whoa
I spied designs inside those spiraled lines of code thats unidentifiable
What have I exposed
My unbiased mind is blown
My environments a lie
Am I alive to die alone
That’s when my center flipped and sitting in my swivel chairs
A figure faintly feminine thats fading in then isn’t there
And she would switch it up from angel to beelzebub
From hellish back to heavenly depending if she felt the love
But if she couldn’t something hooded with a cloven hoof would
Show up and close the book to blow up any hope for good but
I used a mudra to diffuse my moods anxiety
And that’s what helped me loosen what accumulated silently
I saw this humanness’ luminescent live stream
And soon was sent back zooming through the universe at high speed
It freed my ego and released me from its clutches
Then deleted the beliefs that I would previously puppet
What I was warped thru may be more than I can mention
But the moral I absorbed is now the source of my connection
See I was shown a door to where immortals forge their power
Now that was a historic quarter hour
But I’ve seen demon things in basements
And deities with real recent facelifts
All of theses were DMT adjacent
So if we agree on taken one
Well Then thats Liam Neeson basic
Lets try to go for three and see the matrix
Cause I don’t get afraid when in that maze of madness
I just try to make it last then make it back so I can practice
I’ve gone on lots of bad trips and went guano bat shit
Finally got it back when I seen god on blots of acid but
If it’s your first attempt it doesn’t hurt to prep and ready
Just follow certain steps but don’t forget your set and setting
I like to burn incense and take a few asserting breaths
Then quench my thirst and stretch without a hint of urgentness
Just take a pinch and make your herb enriched
Prepare to feel the surging turbulence
The perfect mix of birth and death
I was left with permanent burned imprints where my learnings kept
And still I can’t determine if it’s real or just an urban myth.
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13. |
Negative Space
02:49
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Who’s that the corner of my eye sees?
I need you to move back I warning you politely
Morning noon and nightly
I’m stuck it with what else can I say
But the get the fuck up out my negative space
Yo
I got this little dark outline
That gets traced into my shape when I go outside
I can’t leave without mine
It only seems to follow in the day though
I see it sneaking up and seek my solace where the shade grows
But it takes practice walking in pitch black
If the filament is cracked
Then my silhouette is absent
And still it’s like I’m never left alone
My second self keeps showing up
Like every step is known
So instead of trying to run
I’m becoming numb
And detaching from my shadow in the sun
Cause there can be only one
I got a bogey on my six
Sometimes it’s hard to notice like it’s totally eclipsed
Shit is low key as it gets
I’m not sure of the appropriate defense
It’s not posing any threats at least for now but I’m not holding any breaths
I’d leave my demon at the door
But it jus squeeze in even more
It seems it’s only evenings that it’s easily ignored you see
I filed the forms I’ve even ordered restraints
My smile is worn so there’s really not much more I can take
It’s like I’m sitting with a stranger
That lays low till the rays are in its favor
A scape goat thats blamed for misbehavior
This is the doxxing of my not so distant dark half
My carbon copy opposite, a contradicting broadcast
I’m constantly adopting every optimistic stop gap
And I’m not convinced the stalkings gonna stop yet
I still can’t figure what I’m looking at
Cant pick it up or put it back
Its quick as fuck and stuck under my foot agin
Maybe it’s the boogie man
Maybe I’m just pushing what it could of been
But I’ve been seeing footprints where my loogie’s land
yo
I put a wooden wedge between us but it wouldn’t budge
I used my foot to stretch the seams ,it wasn’t good enough
I tried to rip it but I really didn’t move it much
And I couldn’t snip the stitches so i’ll just assume its stuck 10
They label it a fact of life
A daily thing a lack of light
A staining of unnatural night
These aliens are acting bright
But half the time it’s closer to the ghost of a friend
when it approaches though it’s mostly pretend
Cause there can be only one
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14. |
Two Player Human Game
02:28
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What if you from the future came
And showed you what ensued the next few decades
Would you do the same?
Would your views end up new and changed
This is the Two Player Human Game
We all move where we used to aim
Cause what we used to doesn’t suit today
But we do okay we’ll just keep moving babe
There are no rules in the Two Player Human Game
As we cruise deeper thru the maze
It’s confusing so we’ll make a few mistakes
Don’t assume its safe, no continue or saves
You pay your dues in the Two Player Human Game
When there’s trouble that moves your away
Share the struggle we’ll double up beautifully
We’ll keep doing it till me and you remain
Shoot me your user name
Two Player Human Game
It takes more than a quarter to press in the slot
More than the best shit you bought, expensive or not
It’s more than the check that you’ve got
Even more than your mortgage, investments and stocks
More than you’ve kept in a box in your dresser with socks
It’s more than you’ve spent and forgot
But the more that I mention the topic
The more that you question its welcoming plot
If you’re perplexed by the thought of an audience watching ya
Please let me help you be part of it
Self represent or be stealth and anonymous
I recommend the two player cooperative
When you’re ready for all of this
Check on the box that you’ve read all the bottom print
But you better be positive honest
It’s 24-7 each level goes on a bit
Now lets prep for the part
Make an impression, reflect who u are
Dare to invent an adventurous romp
in the settings to spend with whomever you want
Once you’ve elected to start you’re sent to the depths of the park
Just step thru the entrance, connect with your partner
The rest of your quest will be effin bizarre
What’s the intention you want?
Is it wealth, is it health, Is it selfish or solvin shit?
Is it helpful or harmful? Whatever u want if it’s felt you should follow it
I guess it depends on whose on the sticks
Cause some people win but aint got assists
When I get to the end ima sit in the sand
With a drink in my hands and I’m pausing it
What if you from the future came
And showed you what ensued the next few decades
Would you do the same?
Would your views end up new and changed
This is the Two Player Human Game
We all move where we used to aim,
……cause what we used to doesn’t suit today
But we do okay we’ll just keep moving babe
There are no rules in the Two Player Human Game
As we cruise deeper thru the maze
It’s confusing so we’ll make a few mistakes
Don’t assume its safe, no continue or saves
You pay your dues in the Two Player Human Game
When there’s trouble that moves your away
Share the struggle we’ll double up beautifully
We’ll keep doing it till me and you remain
Shoot me your user name
Two Player Human Game
Two Player Human Game
It’s the Two Player Human Game
You can play it alone
But the name of the song
is the Two Player Human Game
Two Player Human Game
It’s the Two Player Human Game
I’ve been playing too long
Every day I’ve been on it
the Two Player Human Game
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15. |
HighLowLife
03:16
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I’m known to be
bi-polary,
But it’s not a psycho disease
I just feel highs overly
And my lows are deep,
A high lowlife, no between‘s
Yo
But may I please suggest you don’t believe the myths cause
Something don’t seem correct
How’s a human being deemed depressed by some shrink who says
After seeing them a single sesh
That he thinks maybe these are best
That old evil trick, take these as needed if
And while the ink is fresh you head to cvs to pay a fee per fix
But you don’t need the scripts
Use placebos perceived effect and you can ease your stress
Just repeat deep peaceful breaths
When each leaves my chest I feel relief and less freaked I guess
So I don’t seek the meds, I’m just me instead
Although I’m keen to catch a mood swing with a mean intent
A rude dream that jus came and went
It’s routine but may seem intense if you aint seen or sensed
This inhumane main event
But I’ve trained for this day in depth
I’ve obeyed the steps
I’ve sought sages and gained respect
Was taught phrases from ancient texts and retraced the steps
Through the maze my impatience left
So when I stray from that place I lift up
Embrace every day I get cause
That’s just the way life is when your brains like this ……
Like this like this like this like this
Cause I’ve tried everything I have read,
I exercise and stretch, I synchronize my breaths
I go outside for fresh air to unwind the stress
And yet inside my head, I still find a mess
I guess my minds infested with all types of traps
That’s when they might suggest you come inside for a minor test
Then they can finally assess and define it best
Put a light in your eyes move it right to left
Ask all types of questions bout your life’s events
I guess that I should let this guy who I just met decide if I’m depressed
Its fine that I’m inept in this kind of science tech
Cause he’s the wisest psychiatrist I have met, but what if I object
What if a lie’s detected in his eyes a bit
Does he get bribed? I know theres something he’s hiding man I’m convinced
So yes
I’m terrified to take a psych med
Is there a side effect I might get
Cause I’m embarrassed and shy to share that I’m sick
And my symptoms barely apply so where do I fit?
I quit
Who gives advice for this?
Who’s kept nice statistics and deciphered it?
Am I just slight depressed ?
Could I just light some incense and just write instead?
That could align my zen
Lets analyze the best method to fight this in
Before we start testing all types of mixed
Intense S.S.R.I.’s for kicks
Anti depressants just hide the life lessons you find when your kinda stressed
Confess
Cause one tablet by mouth twice daily is just a drug habit some clown prescribed vaguely but
what would it feel like
If you could just suddenly feel right
Could it be real or just a sugary pill
What would it reveal and whose footing the bill
Cause all these pharmaceuticals
Are doing more harm than usual
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16. |
Next
02:37
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Yo
My name is Awd the phonetics it may trouble you
It’s short for Awdbawl but its spelled with an a-w
And you can get it wrong as long as somebody gets it
Just listen to the song and I promise you’ll probably dig it
I’ve been at it for a minute
Two if your trying to count
Proudly independent
At times I be signing out
And when my focus falls I stall from getting bored
And I deal with broken balls like Pawl should give it more
cause I can hella rip it like your favorites do
I used to think that selling tickets equaled paying your dues
But now I’d rather write a page than be live on a stage
I traded flyers with my name for a reliable wage
So it’s officially a hobby
Sorry everybody
Cause you probably wont be streaming this shit
But if you’re listening and bobbing your head like this shit is solid
I got lots of new material go see if it fits
Cause I’m an e-m cee
Aint trying to t-n-t
I’m trying to focus on the fam
Making these ends meet
Cause I’m an e-m-cee
If you could Please let me
Just do a song and move along
N- e - x- t
Yo
Dont get me wrong
I could be doing more
But there’s a hidden side to rap
And i’d like to keep you informed
But you can be assured
To get bored if I talk specifics
Bottom line it’s either art or it’s a business
So listen
I was never established
Though I’m better than average
But that’s just in my humble opinion
And not to be pessimistic
But even the best to spit it come up short
I’d say its one in a million
So hats off to the cats who still rap there ass off
Regardless of the heads in the crowd step up and bow
And a tip of the cap to those that kick it in the lab
Cause thats truly where the best can found repping it proud
Yo like it or not
I ain’t likely to stop
I handle bars like I’m a bicycle shop
Typing savant
So if your nice off the top
Or can write on a topic
You need to drop it
Thats the life of hip hop
I ain’t forgot
Cause I’m an e-m cee
Aint trying to t-n-t
I’m trying to focus on the fam
Making these ends meet
Cause I’m an e-m-cee
If you could please let me
Just do a song and move along
N- e - x- t
Cause I’m an e-m-cee
Ain’t trying to t-n-t
But the thought of ever stoppings
Kinda depressing
Cause I’m an e-m-see
I’d say it’s the best thing
So to all of you producers
I need fresh beats
Come on
N-e-x-t
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